Some shit happens. I do very dumb shit when I'm under the influence... Of emotions e.g. Anger, happiness, fear, love. These emotions that come because well, we're human. These emotions are what differentiate us mere mortals, from the gods, the Immortals who otherwise, are just like us.
Lately, I've realized how much better my decision making is when I'm unhappy or in some pain. Two emotions that would prolly be rather uncomfortable for the average human being. The adrenaline buzz, the reduced levels of serotonin circulation fused with some dopamine absence. This basically gets me up to my best both mentally and physically.
This being the main reason behind this post. I have come to the sad truth and realization that I prolly need to accept the burden, probably abnormal but it is what it is. I'm looking for some peace of mind or whatever Rema said bro.
Anyway, as crazy as it sounds, I'm grateful for self realisation and acceptance which are the drivers of this post and the ones that would follow in coming times. This blog has been idle for too long but not anymore.
Welcome to the masterpiece that is my chaotic mind.
